Whispers in the night

When the day comes to an end, the baby is asleep and you have a moment to just be "you" some may drift quickly into a peaceful slumber or your brain might flip on like a hamster running a wheel who just drank 4 monsters and a 5 hour energy drink....in which case, you might just be like MEEE :-)

It's in these MOMents my heart hears the whispers.....whispers of inadequacy, whispers of comparison, whispers of doubt, fear, worry. Whispers of "you're unloved, you're forgotten, you're not good enough". Whispers that speak so loudly in my mind I can feel the despair in my heart slowly rise to my face and turn to tears.
Have you ever felt like this?

This is a constant battle for me. When the rest of the world is sleeping Im fast AWAKE shuffling with Satan (lucky for me this white girl can dance *winky face*) I haven't been on this journey of faith for long and I kind of got thrown in to it in the midst of some really rough waters. So I am still learning to discern our Father's voice from my own and Satan's. In the midst of learning to trust what I can not see, walk by faith (which I am still trying to build and most days I feel like I'm walking blindly) I feel so easily swayed and defeated....
Evil whispers in the night.
SATAN'S evil whispers!
When the world is ready to rest and recuperate he swoops in. How fitting for him, like a thief in the night! Coming on cue to steal, kill and destroy. Desperately seeking to demolish a good day with just a few little whispers of envy, doubt, fear and worry. He has a very particular way of making you feel a deep down hurt that could only come from something evil. He is just down right mean! A biblical bully!

My heart wondered why it's so hard to hear my Fathers voice above all this noise? Why does God have to be a still small voice when Satan roars so loudly I can't even hear myself think some days.
As quick as the thought entered my mind my heart was  reminded of Daniel in the lions den and before I could grasp what was happening my mind was flooded with biblical testimony. David and Goliath, The Gentiles, Joshua and the walls of Jericho! It just came flooding in!

These whispers began to slowly disappear with each reminder of Who my Father is and then....there was silence.....and just like "that"......this shuffling shindig with Satan was over.

In the trickery of his whispers I heard my Fathers still small voice. With one little reminder His still small voice began to roar so loud in my heart it drowned out the evil whispers in the night.

Today, I have been reminded of how IMPORTANT it is to know His word! To open my bible and read it not just pray and wonder why I am not getting any answers. Had I not tucked away these little treasures in my heart I would have never known that was my Fathers voice directing my thoughts higher.
Faith comes from hearing and hearing comes from reading His word and this time around on the dance floor, I learned that maybe I'm not walking so blindly in faith after all ;-) I guess you could say faith is never blind if you're following the right voice!

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