Divide and conquer

First and foremost I don't like change. The idea of being stirred out of my comfort zone is like being asked to share the last piece of chocolate cake....I don't wanna! There is a sense of safety that comes with being rooted in something, anything. It's grounding it's reassuring.....it's just plain comforting. And I like comfort. So imagine my dismay when orders were cut in the midst of all we have built over the last decade not to mention where we are on our journey of fostering to adopt. Talk about a HUGE curve ball! It was like somebody stole the last piece of chocolate cake that I had been dreaming of devouring all day. A  moment of panic and a plethora of questions consumed us both. "Do we sell the house? Do we rent? Do I stay here and you go? We'd have to start all over again, we'd loose all we've worked towards here in trying to adopt, I don't want to start over, what if we can't get the house rented? We can't afford two mortgages! We have to find a new church home! That took us forever to find here! We'll never find one like here.....AHHHHHH" (insert Trina having a panic attack)

Thankfully we had plenty of time to sort through our LONG list of what I like to call "holy craps" ☺️ We talked, we prayed and we sought out advice from family and friends. We weighed all options and no way we went would it be easy. We'd loose something. Either time with each other or our fostering to adopt. It boiled down to choosing the lesser of the two pains. So with confidence that we are strong enough to be apart from each other for the sake of building our forever family we both decided to take one for the team! Divide and conquer! (*insert nervous smile*)

So, on Monday my husband will venture out to his new duty station to provide for us and I will stay behind to finish out our journey. We've been blessed abundantly to spend the last 10 years of our marriage at one duty station. I think that's a record btw :) But now it's time for scene 11 in our act 1. Time to get stirred out of our comfort zone, embrace being a "single mom", "geo-bachelor" and everything it brings. We are going to embrace the suck 😄 we've spent years trying to fight around it, with it and against it that many times it's left us WEARY so this time, we are going to embrace it and divide to conquer! There is no doubt in my heart that God has something amazing planned. As nervous as I am, every BIG change that has happened in our life has ALWAYS produced divine beauty. Something, that without a doubt we knew God was in it. That everything we went through added up to "this" beautiful moment. And right now, that comforts my anxious heart. So I will keep His praise on my lips and remember all He has done! I am keeping my eyes on Jesus and anticipating our next "beautiful moment". Who knows, it may just be our forever family and a brand new journey in a brand new place. Where there is love, there is God and love endures ALL things!